The rusty door

We have arrived to the hotel in SF at about 9:30 PM. Lulu and I are joking with each other about the accommodations. I found the hotel on priceline.com (first time that I ever used the service), and was lured by the price $65/night, plus taxes (which I think in California are about 1500%?). I was mumbling something along the lines that we have been spoiled, and that now that we have lots of pending medical bills and lost income from her no longer at the office, we have to be more conscientious with our money. Not that we have ever been a "keep up with the Jone's family", but we have had the experience of staying in some nice hotels during all those continuing education courses over last 15 years years. Lulu ask me, "was this hotel rated with 1/2 a star?" I told her that these hotels don't use the star rating system, but instead the "Rusty Door" rating, and for her information this hotel had 4 rusty doors! On the 4 1/2 hour drive from Reno, we talked a lot. Was she nervous about this trip, and I asked why? She was concerned how the our kids would do with their aunt Ibis and the cousins for two days without us. How much was Baby Lourdes going to change when we are gone? What were we going to do with the kids on our next trip down, because my mom had just informed us that she was going to Hawaii for a couple of weeks with my step-father? I was very much enjoying these small moments together. I could tell that Lulu was struggling with this visit to the clinic, and I tried to look into her eyes and hold her hand as much as possible. We touch more often these days and we embrace each other frequently. I love the feel of her against me, I always have, but I just thought in the past that I could hug her whenever I felt like it; not when she needed it? I have found that I'm hugging people that I would have never hugged before. I had found something that I could have been doing all along, like smiling at people, that I had been missing for most of my life. I found myself checking the bed sheets for bed bugs as I climbed into bed for the unrestful night I knew was coming, and out of the corner of my eye I caught Lulu doing the same!